Worried, Scared or Hormones?

Days after days have passed. Looking at the date on my pc reminds me of my coming operation on the 21st. Although this isn't a big op but it isn't a small one either.

I've had numerous ops before but I was NEVER afraid nor nervous. But this time round, I just can't help feeling worried and to be frank, nervous too. I'm not sure why this is so but I am getting cold feet now, thinking of backing out...haha.

The pain is getting intense as each day passes by. My right hand and fingers are getting more numb, yet paintful and the funniest part is the pain is not like those normal pain but more like stinging kind of pain, as if I've smudged some chilli on my hands and fingers. This has been going on for more than 2 weeks and I am trying my best to endure it especially when I'm doing my housework and washing.

I'm also getting more temperamental and quick-tempered now. Could be due to the coming operation I think. Tried hard not to think about it, just praying hard that it will soon be over and the result's fine. :(