I'm Back...from IMH

So many things had happened...again....

"WHY did you bring these in here! We provide everything here! All these cannot bring in one!"

...What the heck, how the hell would I know?!?!?! And pls STOP treating me like a criminal!

"Girl, do you have any towel? Do you know where to get one?"

...I turned around and was shocked and scared because some one, the so-call most kpo patients in the ward, staring at me while I was taking my shower!!!


Well, yes, these, happened in a hospital...namely...IMH - INSTITUTE OF MENTAL HEALTH located at Hougang.

I was admitted to IMH, some Hokkiens call it as the 'siao lang geng' (a place for the crazy ppl). NO freedom, NOTHING...and you are treated like one of the criminals, not even food and drinks allowed inside the ward.

There is an open area just outside the ward where you can receive your 'guests', sit and eat and chat with them, which is also an area where you 'rest and relax' and have your meals there.

Inside the ward, you'll 'shudder' because it is very very 'cold'...the feeling, I mean. It is SOOOO empty with nothing except for the beds for the patients to sleep on and lockers, period. Not even side tables.

There is a fixed schedule for everything from taking showers to having meals and sleep. You are NOT ALLOWED to go in and out between the ward and the open area as and when you like. Not even when you are very drowsy. Just rest on the chairs or sofa in the open area if it is not time for the patients to go inside the ward yet and you can expect to stay out there for at least 1/2 a day!

It can still be considered as a stigma having to see a psychiatrist, not to mention staying in one such SPECIALISED hospital although most of us in Singapore are better educated than before and a more 'open-minded' society. A shame or a pity? Civilised or uncivilised? Cultured or ??? Lots of question marks. What ever ppl call it. I am still blogging this PERSONAL experience of mine in there regardless of the stigma as I hope, sincerely wish that no one will be admitted in there. It is definitely not a very pleasant place to 'stay'. I'd rather you ppl, who need such help and treatment, to be admitted to TTSH if need be, rather than this place. FRIGHTENING, although it has indeed cured many others similar.

I am just 'admitting' that I was admitted into the institute, and had been before even before this time.

Diagnosis?

Well...

Major Depression and Schizophrenia.

These were noted down on my files...or rather, the psychiatrists'.

So...then...I (ME) had a very small argument with the psychiatrists (PSY)...below is a partial 'conversation' between the psychiatrists and myself...


ME : "WHAT makes you so sure and HOW can you confirm that the things which I always hear, see and smell are NOT for real but are just some hallucinations of mine?"

PSY : "If while you are here on treatment and we observed that you are still hearing, seeing and smelling things which we could not see, hear or smell, then it's HALLUCINATIONS!"

Me : "BUT if it is some supernatural doings, which I know ppl from medical field will not agree and admit unless proven, and NOT everyone has this kind of ability, and while in here I do not have such experience doesn't mean it does not exist as this kind of thing may not happen every day, every time, every where!"

I am a bit agitated by now...


Anyway, the 'conversation' wasn't a very pleasant one, with some 'arrows' shooting here and there and exchanges of some unhappy and 'wierd' expressions.

What ever. I asked for discharge after ONE WHOLE WEEK'S of stay over there telling them that I will really go crazy if I stayed on!

Definitely NOT a pleasant place to have your 'holidays' or 'resort' as my friend call it! *rolling eyes*

Pls...it is definitely a MUST to seek treatment and professional help if you really need one but try NOT to stay in IMH (come sue me!). May be I am timid. May be I hardly mix around with ppl (sure not with these type of really mentally unstable ones). May be.....SHARKS! What ever may bessssss there are! Just DO NOT ever get in there! Go TTSH! Go CGS or where ever you think is a better place to really recuperate and rest but NOT IMH! You want details? I can give but I'd rather not. Do not wish to frighten ppl nor wish to 'remind' myself of the frights and unhappy events and happenings in there.

I'm NEVER EVER gonna go back there ever ever again in this life (not the next or next next either!) except for collecting my medication and seeing the psychiatrists there.

AH MI TUO FO!!